Only Nixon could go to China

I want
I want
I want to come on my own face.
That doesn't seem like such a bad idea.
So I do.
I lie on my back
and I flip my legs over my head
and I jerk off
upside down
(with the shades closed)
(and I'm getting a cramp)
(and how do you explain this to the chiropractor)
and I jerk off
upside down
and I come
on my own face
and I get some of it
in my mouth
and it's disgusting
I don't know how you do it
I really don't

I want
I want
I want I want I want
I want to have sex with an anonymous man
I want a big fuckin' cock
up my anus
Nine inches long
thick as a seven-year-old's fist
I want
I want
I want masculine hands grasping my hips
I want
someone to hit me
while they come
a good solid punch
right in the mouth
blood dribbling down my chin
right as they shoot themselves
up my cavity

I want
I want
I want I want I want
I want to touch you
I want to hold you
I want to feel you
I want I want I want
I want to bite your nipples
I want
to choke you while I fuck you
I want
I want I want I want I want
I want to masturbate under my winter coat.
So I do.
I walk down Wilson Avenue
with a smile for every passing stranger
"How do you do"
"Lovely weather we're having, isn't it?"

I want
I want
I want I want I want I want
I want to plunge my hands
into my chest
and rip my torso open
and stick you inside of me
because we're not close enough
yet
I want us to become one
I want to be you
I want you to be me
I want us to be...
IT
A sweaty, writhing, bloody monster
trapped in an ice prison
on the 9th circle of hell
I want
I want
I want I want I want
I want you to give me a handjob
I want you to buy me the new Beastie Boys album
I want you to ritually kill yourself for my love
I want you to make Thai food for dinner tonight
I want
I want I want I want
EVERYTHING
I want everything
and I want it all
and I want it all
and I want it now
I want you to hit me
and kick me
and slap me
and spit on me
I want to hit you
and kick you
and slap you
and spit on you
I want you to curl me in your arms
and tell me that I'm yours
I want you to shove a dildo up my ass
and call me your bitch
I want to come on my face for you
I want to come on your face for me
I want
I want
I want I want I want I want

I want you.

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