Okay, I guess I don't like men very much, I guess that's something I could say up front. I don't know. I'd like to like them, you know? I think it'd be alright to be with a man. But I'll try and I just can't... work up the... whatever. You know, to like them.

So one night, awhile ago... God, how long ago was that? A long time ago. Anyway, Aaron and I were part of a big crowd that saw some show, some movie or a band or something, I don't remember now. And Aaron and I ended up at this diner, late night, eating fries or something and we were both really drunk. And we were having this really nice conversation and he seemed okay, you know. He was cute and all.

So we end up leaving and we're walking on the sidewalk down to the el stop and he pulls me into an alley and we start kissing, right there in the alley. And it was alright, I guess, it was okay. He kisses fine, I guess. But we're in the middle of kissing and he starts pawing at my breasts and starts whispering about how much he wants to go down on me, and then that's when I started getting a little creeped out, and it occured to me how much I wanted to be in this alley with Debbie, you know. It was the first time I realized what a huge crush I have on Debbie, and that night was the start of it all, you know, this big years-long thing I've had for her now.

So I made up some kind of excuse and went home and Aaron told me to call him but I didn't but then he met Barb a couple of a weeks later and so, you know, thank God. And that's the last guy I've been with. Well, hell. That's the last person I've been with.